Letting Go

by MB

What do I need to let go of in order to feel better about my body?

The bravest thing one can do is to let go of what isn't meant for them. Physically, mentally and spiritually. This act requires bravery because we’re inclined to stay safe in our comfort zones, but it is through stepping outside, into the bright and warm sun, that we grow. It may be dangerous, not knowing what will come next in our lives, but letting go is also liberating and thrilling. For it’s when we free ourselves of all that we think we are that we can step into who we’re really meant to become — into who we truly are on the inside.

There is nothing shameful about my body. Her emotions, flesh, reality - the space she takes up. I've been holding onto this idea that my body, my existence, was something I should be ashamed of. Something that was wrong. That normal people do  not feel or want this intensely.

Today in group - to five women not dissimilar from me - I was overcome by a realization   It's good to know I am not alone. We are all afraid of losing her. Of wondering if we even exist without her. She is our friend, the voices in our head. She is me and she and us.