On Keeping a Notebook

by MB


"It all comes back. Perhaps it's difficult to see the value in having one's self back in that kind of mood, but I do see it; I think we are all well advised to keep on nodding terms with the people we used to be, whether we find them attractive company or not. Otherwise they turn up unannounced and surprise us, come hammering on the mind's door at 4 a.m. of a bad night and demand to know who deserted them, who betrayed them, who is going to make amends. We forgot all too soon the things we thought we could never forget. We forget the loves and the betrayals alike, forget what we whispered and what we screamed, forget who we were."

-  Joan Didion, On Keeping a Notebook